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The previous commit was sadly necessary, but this file is still so outdated that I want it out of the live site until I hopefully fix it sometime.
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title: About me
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layout: page
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permalink: /about.html
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excerpt: "A little about me on transness, Asperger's syndrome/autism, feminism, asexuality & using Linux."
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published: false
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---
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<em>Even if I talk about these things openly here, I prefer that
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<strong>you don't talk about me being these minorities to anyone</strong>
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and <strong>let me tell by myself</strong> if I see reason to do it.
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People interested enough can put my name to any search engine and find here sooner or later.</em>
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<em>If you did out me, you would risk me being treated differently and
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possibly cause dangerous concequences.</em>
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On this page I am trying to explain myself more or those things that you
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might wonder in my self-description. Some things that I explain here may
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overlap with different features.
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*For more material about these things, please see [GRSM links](/links2).*
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## GirlsLikeUs — I am a trans woman
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It simply means that I was incorrectly defined as boy at birth which I
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never was. I didn't always know it, but around 14-15 Dysphoria really hit
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me.
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I was always different from boys and I have been always bullied and I
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became suicidal and depressed. I was diagnosed with AS which didn't so
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much, but finally I came to realization on who I am and started the
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progress to be recognized as myself.
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As the progress is too slow in Finland I ended up starting HRT
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([Hormone Replacement Therapy](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hormone_replacement_therapy))
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by myself (like many (if not most) of us here do) and was on it for year
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before getting diagnosed and getting HRT officially.
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Many people have said that I am nowadays happier and smile more and other
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things like that and I know this is who I am.
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It's also not very nice when you separate sex and gender by saying "your
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gender can be female, but you are always biologically male" and it has
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been noted multiple times that gender is biological.
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*[GRSM links](/links2)*
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* [How to respect a Transgender person at WikiHow](http://www.wikihow.com/Respect-a-Transgender-Person)
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*I feel this part doesn't transmit how being trans feels and some things
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should possibly be mentioned here...*
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## AS - Asperger's Syndrome
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I am AS-person and you might see it from the way I write and speak. I have
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some over-sensitive senses like sense of hearing and it becomes difficult
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for me to speak if I try to look into your eyes at the same time, so I am
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not trying to be impolite or anything, it's just easier to not look at you
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while I speak. Same applies to understanding your speaking.
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*This paragraph is stub -.-*
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* [How to understand Autism at WikiHow](http://www.wikihow.com/Understand-Autism)
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* Might apply more to children, but it's a feature so one won't simply
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get healed from it.
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*I have afterwards learned that I am also a [Higly Sensitive Person (HSP](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sensory_processing_sensitivity), but it
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overlaps with autism a little and I don't know what to start typing it and
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it's piece of information that would mainly interest another HSP like
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many other things on this page, so I am just leaving it here.*
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## Ace & Relationship Anarchist
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*I am asexual and possibly relationship anarchist, but it will be seen...*
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I used to define myself as poly-curiuos (wondering if I am poly (capable
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of having simultaneous close romantic relationships with two or more
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people or not) and demiromantic (the ace of diamonds playing card is their
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symbol shared by demisexuals) which means only forming romantic attraction
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after forming close emotional bond with the person
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At some point I started wondering does touching and caring have to be
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limited into relationship and found
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[Romantic Asexual, or Touch Hunger?](https://abnormaldiversity.blogspot.fi/2012/12/romantic-asexual-or-touch-hunger.html?) which made sense and made
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me think that there is no romanticity, just sensuality and in the bottom
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relationship anarchy. As what is the difference between friend and partner,
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what prevents you from (consentually) cuddling or having sex with friends?
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What prevents you from loving your friends and is loving so different from
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liking and don't you sometimes use the words interchangeably? What prevents
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you from doing all the things you wish to do with your partner with some
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friend? What if love comes after you stop for especially looking for one
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or multiple people to call as partner(s)?
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I have found a word for this, *quoiromantic* (aka *wtfromantic* or
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*whatromantic*) and I think I can still use the ace of diamonds symbol
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as *demisensual* is the closest to describe my relationship with
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touch (meaning that I might like it after there is some sort of a emotional
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bond).
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However labels such as partner still appear to be necessary with unique
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relationships based on their development or otherwise I am not understood.
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*I am not so sure about this as I might seem in typing this, but what will
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happen will be seen when it happens.*
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* [Relationship anarcy at Wikipedia](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Relationship_anarchy)
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* [How to understand asexual people at WikiHow](http://www.wikihow.com/Understand-Asexual-People)
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## Feminist
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I support equal rights for everyone and the right of self-definition (or
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not requiring anyone to define themselves). Everyone should also be the one
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to choose what they do with their body (abortion, gender transition etc.)
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freely without complicated researchs and other people or society judging
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them.
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*This is basicaly everything, but shouldn't I also say something more?*
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## Linux user
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I have been used Linux since 2008, I started with [Ubuntu] \(8.04).
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My preferred distribution is [Ubuntu MATE] or [Arch Linux] or with servers
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[Debian], but I am also familiar with other distributions, mainly
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[Debian]-deriatives.
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I have experience with [Fedora] and other distributions from that side too
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and I am not entirely lost while using them, but somehow I have always
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preferred Debian side. Maybe it's just that I have learned to use it.
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[Ubuntu]:http://www.ubuntu.com/desktop
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[Ubuntu MATE]:https://ubuntu-mate.org/
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[Ubuntu Server]:http://www.ubuntu.com/server
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[Debian]:https://www.debian.org/
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[Fedora]:https://getfedora.org
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[Antergos]:http://antergos.com/
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[MATE]:http://mate-desktop.org/
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[SDDM]:https://github.com/sddm
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*Hah, this is the only part of the page I feel is enough descriptive...*
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*Update: every time I read this this seems to be outdated and is possibly
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getting removed entirely sometime.*
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## Life
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This link list to life post on my blog shouldn't be here, but it has no
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better place, so where else should it be?
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*Time of writing in YYYY-MM-DD (ISO 8601): title or what it's about.*
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* [2015-03-25: Leaving bot communities & a little on my life]({% post_url 2015-03-25-leaving-bots-life %})
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* [2015-04-03: Scum]({% post_url 2015-04-03-scum %})
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* [2015-04-01: Saasta (same in Finnish)]({% post_url 2015-04-01-saasta %})
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* [2015-05-18: Somewhat more on my life & untold background of bots]({% post_url 2015-05-18-life-bot-background %})
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* [2015-06-16: Feelings and wounds of school bullying]({% post_url 2015-06-16-feelings %})
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* [2015-06-29: Google translated "suicide post"](https://translate.google.fi/translate?sl=fi&tl=en&js=y&prev=_t&hl=fi&ie=UTF-8&u=https%3A%2F%2Fmikaela.info%2Ffinnish%2F2015%2F06%2F29%2Fminusta.html&edit-text=)
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* *I was at psychiatrical hospital after writing this.*
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* [2015-09-09: The most important post that I have written]({% post_url 2015-09-09-act-around-trans %})
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* [2015-11-03: I moved to Lauttasaari, Helsinki]({% post_url 2015-11-03-moving %})
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* way too positive for this section, but where else...
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* [2015-11-21: Email to Legal Affairs Committee on how trans law must be based on the right of self-definition](https://translate.google.fi/translate?sl=fi&tl=en&js=y&prev=_t&hl=en&ie=UTF-8&u=https%3A%2F%2Fmikaela.info%2Ffinnish%2F2015%2F11%2F21%2Fsahkopostia-lakivaliokunnalle-translaki.html&edit-text=)
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* [2017-04-18: Google Translated dance lesson trauma](https://translate.google.com/translate?sl=fi&tl=en&js=y&prev=_t&hl=en&ie=UTF-8&u=https%3A%2F%2Fmikaela.info%2Ffinnish%2F2017%2F04%2F18%2Ftanssitunti.html&edit-text=)
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* [2017-04-30: After trans process and AvPD, everything is OK]({% post_url 2017-04-30-post-trans %})
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* * * * *
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*Please keep in mind that everything in this page is just my opinion and
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not all trans or AS or \<any group\> people are the exact same.*
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