blog/drafts: abandon 2017-07-30-google-alternateemail-phone.md

I don't remember anyone wondering that in ages and besides not using Google may be better

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-layout: post
-comments: true
-title: ""
-category: [english]
-tags: [Google, Trello, Calendar, Docs, Drive, email, phone]
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-
-*I was having confusion with Google Account and alterate emails and phone
- numbers and I imagine other people might do too and I feel like typing
- this.*
-
-

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-layout: post
-title: "Who is we?"
-category: [english]
-tags: [english, life]
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-
-*This is a question that has been bothering me for a week or so and now the
- time is ripe for blogging, even if I have no answers.*
-
-I am typing and backspacing this line, I don't know how to properly begin
-and format my message, or if my message can be understood. I think I will
-begin by listing what events have lead me to think of the question, who is
-"we".
-
-* * * * *
-
-Case redacted
-
-I feel anxious returning to thinking about this case which I have removed
-from my blog even if git remembers, I appreciate if you don't start digging
-for more of that story. I don't even remember how it went.
-
-There was a project and there was drama. I was "given permission"
-(how exactly?) to talk as "we", I think it's simple to say it went to my
-head and bad things happened.
-
-* * * * *
-
-Case matrix-appservice-irc
-
-*I am not affiliated with New Vector or Matrix.org and neither are the
- people I am going to describe, it's just easy to pick the name of the
- project based on where this happened. I guess the people may not even
- remember this incident, unless they are harbouring similar thoughts and
- going to write their versions of this post.*
-
-I am not sure how to talk about this either, but after having told about
-*redacted* I feel less anxious as this happened after my worst mental health
-problems.
-
-There is a group of people. There is someone others don't get along with
-well and another one whom people get along with a bit better.
-
-The first person asks whether "we" should do something (funnily I have no
-memory of what, but it's irrelevant to this post as this could have happened
-anywhere) and I think what happened was the second person starting to
-challenge the first one asking who are they to talk about "we". Can you
-guess what happens next?
-
-I still don't remember what exactly happened, but within the same
-discussion the second person starts talking similar things as "we". I think
-this time I am the one challenging them, asking how does their "we" differ
-from the "we" of the first person or why are they allowed to say "we" while
-the first one cannot.
-
-I think there were hurt feelings and I faintly remember talking about it
-with a third person, who I think agreed that there wasn't difference between
-those "we"s and maybe even said that it was good that I pointed it out? I
-don't remember, but I might regardless be typing this post and I have at
-least two more cases.
-
-* * * * *
-
-Cases PrivacyTools.IO
-
-This is an interesting case, because I guess I am supposedly part of the 
-"we" or at least a team member (unless I have gotten "fired" during the time
-I am typing this) and I have criticized PTIO before finding myself in the
-team. I am not sure or the case being interesting is why I again have
-difficulties finding words while the previous case felt easy to get out. Or
-maybe the problem is that this is actually cases in plural.
-
-PTIO attempts to list tools that preferably anyone can use to protect their
-privacy. There are GitHub issues (where I am active), Discourse Forum (which
-I read thanks to mailing list mode) and a subReddit which I see at times
-when Reddit decides to give me a web push notification. PTIO is also hosting
-some services.
-
-Now I look at the previous paragraph and wonder... What I am asking is
-"who is we", but I could similarly ask who is PTIO, are they also a person
-who happens to be hosting many services and list tools for privacy? Or is it
-a inanimate website which just happens to have a founder and contributions
-by many people on GitHub? And are the websites hosted by PTIO or Barung and
-Jonah who are the service department?
-
-At this point on line 87 this question starts seeming silly, but I am not
-finished yet. Maybe "we" deserves the defence on whether it makes more sense
-to ask whether "we should list X" or whether "X should be listed on PTIO",
-I think I prefer the later form as it doesn't refer to the "we" and thus it
-doesn't bring to existence the others.
-
-I have been reading books by [Jaron Lanier](http://jaronlanier.com/) recently, beginning from
-_Ten Arguments for Deleting Your Social Media Accounts Right Now_,
-_Who Owns The Future_ and currently I am reading _You Are Not a Gadget_.
-I may be using weird books as I read the first and the last in Finnish while
-I am typing in English so I know the English to Finnish translation of
-Kirsimarja Tielinen and am translating it back to English and it wouldn't be
-very surprising if I ended up to a different translation than the original
-word.
-
-Anyway especially in the first book he mentions a "pack switch" in peoples
-heads and how social media (I wish I knew what was the original name of
-"SUMUTIN") attempts to turn it into the pack position instead of the
-individual postition. I think this and references to it in the other books
-are inspiration for me to be typing this (on line 106 in Neovim) as I have
-been seeing examples of this.
-
-* A Finnish article on how a [YLE reporter met a man who wished for death of his family](https://yle.fi/aihe/artikkeli/2019/05/30/nettivihaa-tyossaan-kohtaava-sami-koivisto-tapasi-miehen-joka-toivoi-hanen).
-    * The reporter had written request [From reporter: don't do a favour to terrorists - don't distribute hate on social media](https://yle.fi/uutiset/3-9786940)
-      which apparently wasn't very liked on a certain imageboard where
-      horrible things were said and this person was sued and met in
-      arbitration and I see this as a case of us-vs-them.
-* Another recent case happened after I had already left Facebook\*, it goes
-  too close to people I know and associations I have responsibility in so I
-  am afraid of bringing the subject up again, so I will just say that there
-  was kind of a manhunt on Facebook and I was afraid that the next day I
-  would be hearing about how the situation escalated into a manhunt and a
-  murder. Luckily that didn't happen and the last I heard was that the
-  police got involved and the situation ended well.
-
-Within this text editor I have gotten sidetracked for one screenful of text,
-I have said that being "we" went badly for me in the past and that there is
-ambiguosity between "PTIO"/"we", referred to books and Finnish events, so
-I should be getting back to the subject.
-
-While PTIO is not a imageboard, I still wonder who is that "we", because if
-there is a "we", there must be those "others" and if there are "others",
-doesn't pack mentality require "them" to be hated and maybe also feared? Who
-are those others? Is it perhaps another privacy site like [PRISM BREAK](https://prism-break.org/en/)
-or people who aren't as privacy concious? Who are privacy concious if I use
-GMail and have Google Play Services on my phone, am I not part of us then? I
-keep removing this sentence as the obvious continuation would be stereotypes
-making me the target.
-
-Recently there was another specific case on PTIO Reddit, someone asked about
-DNS over HTTPS which is one of the issues I have thought the most about:
-
-> [Should we add these settings as recommended hardening on the firefox about:config hardening page?](https://www.reddit.com/r/privacytoolsIO/comments/c9s7qz/adding_dns_over_https_firefox_config_settigs_to/)
-
-There we (haha) have the "we" again, I felt a bit annoyed when Reddit web
-push notification sent me to that page as I was hungry and tired and the
-discussion was had in Reddit instead of at GitHub in [ 💬 Discussion | Firefox eSNI / DoH/TRR #785 ](https://github.com/privacytoolsIO/privacytools.io/issues/785) where I and four other people had discussed it
-previously. There was one nice question on [why everyone just doesn't run their own DNS server](https://www.reddit.com/r/privacytoolsIO/comments/c9s7qz/adding_dns_over_https_firefox_config_settigs_to/et3g7cu) which
-indeed would resolve at least my concerns, but... OK, now I am actually
-getting beside the point.
-
-I think the point is that I wish to provoke you, whoever is reading this,
-into thinking who is that "we" in these scenarios that could happen anywhere.
-
-If I finish up talking about PTIO, I don't know how many people there are
-commenting at GitHub, Discourse, Reddit, Matrix, and whether they are the
-same people everywhere or different and at the risk of sounding stupid or
-elitist, I will say that I have no idea who the person opening the Reddit
-thread is, they are not a member of the GitHub organization nor a moderator
-at Reddit. As I have said previously, I am not active at Reddit, so I don't
-know if they were e.g. the most active poster/commenter there. Who is we?
-Maybe it was the PTIO Reddit users?
-
-I don't like how the previous paragraph turned out, I am bad with words. I
-do hope everyone keeps doing what they like and is welcoming to everyone, I
-hope I made it clear earlier that my argument (if you can get it) undermines
-itself while I said that there probably isn't that much difference in
-"should we do X" or "should PTIO do X". PTIO can only be a sum of everyone
-who contributes into it and if no one contributes, there can be no PTIO.
-
-I still have two cases I intent to touch.
-
-* * * * *
-
-Case *Notes on privacy and data collection of Matrix.org*
-
-*If you ask Maxidorius or other The Grid protocol community members about
- this, they likely have no idea what I talk about as as with case
- matrix-appservice-irc it's easier to take the name of where or what caused
- the discussion, especially in this case as I don't want to promote the
- quiet channel where this happened.*
-
-The setting is a bit quiet IRC channel where many users happen to be from
-Matrix. Due to the [Notes on privacy and data collection of Matrix.org](https://gist.github.com/maxidorius/5736fd09c9194b7a6dc03b6b8d7220d0)
-and me being a founder, I was asked if "we should ban Matrix so the users will
-be more safe".
-
-I haven't yet addressed the question who is "I", which my original question
-"who is we" begs, I originally planned to not involve it, but it seems like
-I have to at least in a few words. I think it should be enough to say that
-I am not perfect or handle everything well (I have decided to throw this
-post into the drafts directory after I reach the end so I can ask at least
-some PTIO people to comment and why not people from this case too)...
-
-I wasn't my best self at that time either and as this post had been
-demanding to be written for days I started asking who that "we" is. And
-whether everyone who cannot prove running a IRC client at home should be
-banned as while I agree that Matrix is bad in this regard, I at least have
-some sort of idea what it is doing, while I cannot know what are IRCCloud
-and big shells doing (legally secrecy of correspondence would at least
-prevent them from reading what happens in the channel and same applies to
-Matrix, but I cannot know how long anything else is storing data).
-
-Skipping several lines I asked the most active Matrix users (and everyone
-else) what would they do if "the mysterious 'we' decided to ban Matrix users"
-and one response was that they wouldn't bother just for one channel. I also
-said that I wouldn't want to lose anyone.
-
-No one told me who is the "we". I guess having undermined my argument that
-the "we" is people on the channel or at least the most active chatters and
-the not-operator asking the question wishes that the op/user distinction
-to not be that big and the users may also take part on running the channel,
-which I do think is a good idea, but as I said before, the "we" brings the
-idea that there are also the "others" and I don't know who are the others
-either. Are they the Matrix users other than the most active ones? Are they
-those who don't say anything often? Are they those who chat when I am sleeping
-and whom I never chat with directly for that reason?
-
-* * * * *
-
-Case I
-
-LGBT\* circles have the right of self-definition and the right to not define
-self. I wonder if I should take the later right to get out of that difficult
-question, but it doesn't feel right to me, even if I originally didn't plan
-to type this.
-
-I am myself and many things, I may seem to be a different person in a group
-where I feel safe or in a large group of people where I don't know the
-people around. My communication can be very different when I am happy or
-hungry. I am getting sidetracked, am I not?
-
-For the purpose of this post, I am someone who has recovered from mental
-health problems and started attempting to communicate nonviolently. I try
-to be myself, "I", instead of "we" (whoever that was again). I try to make
-clear what are my thoughts and feelings instead of communicating them as
-thoughts/feelings of someone else, be that the mysterious "we" or a project
-that has no life in itself.
-
-I admit that I fail often, I guess that is to be a human, and if you and me
-meet somewhere either in the internet or offline, I am going to fail
-regardless of the language. I wonder if trying can also be thought as the
-learning progress which is part of the journey and the journey is as
-important as the destination.
-
-With these words it's good time to end typing this post and commit this in
-the drafts directory for spamming around for feedback on whether this is
-ready for release in the blog or if there are suggestions how I should change
-specific paragraphs or anything.
-
-Would you mind commenting at: https://github.com/Mikaela/mikaela.github.io/issues/147 ?

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