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**TRIGGER WARNING**

> I should probably also say some kind of opinion.

> I don't like calling anyone names and I think it would be best to just
> talk about things, but there are always people who don't listen or
> want to understand and maybe this word has it's usage, I haven't used it
> much, but I think that I might have used it sometime when upset, but
> I don't remember more and my memory hasn't worked lately.
>
> Of course it can probably be thought that if I was more attacking,
> I might still be at school unlike the people there whom this word
> possibly describes... Shortly, first time they said "hi Name, you are
> beautiful", next time "hi" and mocked my masculine voice and the third
> time I couldn't even use bathroom in peace, my name was shouted and
> when I ignored them and didn't look them at all, they shouted after me
> if I have \<male genitalia\>. School naturally cannot do anything at
> all, because I am not cis or neurotypical so I have just been at home
> for month and talked about suicide possibly daily.
>
> I am probably bad human, because I am in disputes with everyone
> everywhere and I am not good trans either, because I only wish that I
> was cis girl and neurotypical and that someone could love me some day. I
> don't know if being out is the best possible choise for me, but I don't
> have a choice and maybe it will help someone even if I never heard about
> the person and I try to do everything I can even if nothing ever succeeds
> and I always do and say everything wrongly.
>
> I am tired of this war which is always in these comments and continuosly
> trans person is killed somewhere, especially trans woman of colour
> and everywhere there are laws against LGBTIQ+ people and now there has
> been aa lot talk about those bathrooms. It's just not possible to get
> rest from this thing.
>
> (and I once again managed to talk offtopic most of the time, but as I
> wrote this, maybe I must also send this)
>
> (ja onnistuin puhumaan suurimman osan aivan aiheen vierestä, mutta kun
> minä kerran kirjoitin tämän niin kai minun pitää myös lähettää tämä)

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_This is translated from my [Finnish post]({% post_url 2015-04-01-saasta %})_